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30 Days

Noticed and tweeted a mini-milestone today. It’s just a month to the Mayan Apocalypse. The milestone being Fox News unashamed ‘coverage’ and countdown to the end. They’re not afraid to masquerade anything as news anymore. I’m just glad they haven’t connected it to Obama’s reelection (yet). There IS still a month.

On a strange note, I noticed an article mentioning an uptick of feelings of a confusing kind of paranoia. Sounded similar to what I’ve been feeling lately so I did a search and noticed a strange quantity of talk about it on the webs. Is this always around or am I in on some kind of subtle mass affliction?

Revelation 9 Event

It’s a phrase I came across today. Google doesn’t turn up a result for it but it is probably obviously a reference to Revelations 9 in the Bible. It fascinates me how deep this apocalyptic theory goes. I asked the blogger to expand, and he kindly did:

Dan, all I can offer at the moment is the sidebar search here and on theopenscroll.com. Search “revelation 9” and you’ll get plenty of hits. My reference to “rev 9 event” is to the opening of the pit by the angel king.

It is interesting to me that some conspiracy theorists believe events are happening to bring about the end times yet dismiss Dec. 21 as the likely armageddon. Curious that one could see through the Mayan calendar theories yet hold tight to a different doomsday scenario.

Missing Time – What’s Going On?

What is going on?

Pretty much everything I did on my computer for the last few hours is completely gone. What a strange morning. Especially with all the nutty things happening in the world to blog about. I had a post all ready for you, dear reader, filled with mayhem.

Surely you’ve been paying attention too, though it would almost appear that what happened to my computer happened all over because I can’t find the news I swear I was just reading anywhere now. Just bits and pieces. I feel a little crazy. Like I just woke up from a dream so real that what happened in it seemed like a real memory.

I know I was surfing and blogging though, through this foggy day. I even thought I saw a couple bits of snow, weird for N. CA. Then a flicker on the screen and the lights in my room which to me now almost seem like some big reset switch was pressed over the hours preceding it. Awfully strange.

If any of you have a link to the strange things that were happening these last few hours like house pets freaking out, electrical storms, episodes of hysterics in populated cities, please send them this way.

Apocalypse Now

And then it all floods back. I was standing in a dusty supermarket, shadows of branches and leaves waving in the wind swept the floors. Everyone was dazed. I wouldn’t call it panic buying since no one knew what to panic about. The cashier asked me something but I was momentarily stunned as if I had just awoken from a nightmare bolted upright. I don’t know what’s going on in my head lately, all this confusion and cloudiness.

Managing to clear some of the fog I asked for a plastic bag and started jamming my produce in it. The news is just too weird. It’s not like 9/11 where obviously a Horrible Thing had happened. But jet black ash appearing over much of the western world is clearly not a good thing. It seems like most of us are suffering from at least a bit of this cloudy head thing too. I like how it’s Us now (that’s one similarity to 9/11). It’s not uncommon to bump into someone who suffered a recent cat scratch or dog bite. We’re all on edge and it’s not just the news. It’s like some heavenly hypnotist has tricked our brains into churning nothing, everything, over and over. We’re all ruminating.

Maybe the ash is connected. I’m at my computer now, typing, trying to get my brain straight, trying to figure out the progression of this amateur blogger’s (me) posts. Trying to make heads of what’s going on with me and what’s going on with the world. Most people think it’s Israel, some say CERN did something crazy. I gotta say I think if it were Israel messing up the world it would be a lot harder to keep the public from knowing.

Strangest information I can find, maybe the most relevant to me are these ‘waking dreams’ popping up all over in reports. Some are pretty explainable, people thinking they saw long-lost friends and relatives. Some, like this, are downright spooky:

…then I was on a different train. It was an awfully unsettling feeling because it suddenly was half as fast and, I know my route like the back of my hand, it was turning in a different direction. Looking outside, everything was just slightly different. Like I couldn’t pinpoint it but different in some unknowable way. The most unsettling part was noticing a different flag on the buildings. I’m a vet and have some pretty intense national pride and that just floored me. I’m still shaking. At some point things righted themselves kind of like how in a dream you forget all the strange stuff that’s going on. But I still find myself looking around and making sure the stars and stripes are still there.

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‘Foggy Mind’ Reports Centering in Europe

Sounds like it is as bad there as anywhere:

Numerous reports coming in from nations in the Eurozone – mass depression, mass hysteria, or massive hoax? In numbers too large to believe, citizens complaining of mental anguish and fatigue are flooding emergency lines, stretching emergency resources thin.

Is this a hysteria related to the strange natural phenomena reported in nearly every populous city in the western world?

No, it sounds exactly like what I’ve been dealing with for the last few months. And it’s only getting worse. I can’t even run into someone on the street that doesn’t have some similar symptoms.

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I’ve started trying to just be calm and present with the cloud in my head and have come to some understanding with it. I’ve mused about it before as a feedback loop and I am more sure that’s the perfect way to explain what we’re all starting to sense. I think maybe even our animals are dealing with it. It would explain the sudden rise in severe reactionary responses in our pets lately.

My best explanation of the sensation is, if you’ve ever been super high on weed (no this is not a pot joke), it’s that feeling. Where your thoughts or the things happening around you become ultra detailed and the more you focus on them the easier it is to focus. Kind of a mental feedback where it all gets more powerful and sometimes very overwhelming.

Some people think it’s some kind of chemical warfare. I gotta say no. It’s much to widespread. Some are saying CERN did it. Two theories: One, they’re opening gravitational vertices that are cracking the earth’s crust globally and releasing this chemical into the air. Two, the gravity alone is enough to upset our natural balance and create this mental confusion.

I gotta say no there too but I don’t have a better explanation either. These CERN scares are widely debunked – no doubt the black holes they’re creating are far far too small and short-lived to cause any problems. And none of them explain the skies and the clouds of ash.

So what is it? I don’t know. I’m starting to suspect that this Feedback Loop we’re experiencing is something we’re ALWAYS tapped into. It just takes an altered state to bring it to our attention. Why is it happening now? Well, what do you think? Any theories? Tweet me @DanThantanos with your thoughts.